Have you ever had someone around you that’s so negative that there wouldn’t be anyone in the world who would willingly want to live with them ?
I have such a person in my life. Around every turn they want to give up. They start at the crack of dawn and don’t stop till it’s evening. I have really had my hands full with this non sense . I went forward for prayer yesterday just to be able to say that I’ve at least tried this as well . I can’t anymore. This is just the place where God wants me. He wants me to be in a place where I realize that I can’t anymore without His help.
I rely on him every day for that extra inspiration or little something that would make it possible for this person to be helped along in life. And it’s true. Without God I can do nothing. I can’t inspire anyone even myself. I am extending my sympathies to those who have experienced something similar. If there is anyone out there who has experienced something similar please accept my prayer for you.
And my prayer for you is this :
Lord Grant those who read this the peace to endure what they need to ,
The ability to encourage where they can ,
The wisdom to know how to handle those in their lives who are like this ,
And your special anointing to bring healing in body mind and spirit.
I had a massive dream when I started blogging good news. Now I see that perhaps it was just a prophecy of what is to come. I see movies being made of the entire bible so that people won’t have to read it anymore. I thought that the money to create these movies would come from you the people supporting this network. But I see now that it is already in the making and Mel Gibson has the inside track on this.
So perhaps , all this is just a prophetic action of something that is already happening in the Spirit. None the less , it has been a challenge to get this multisite up running. I’d like to have made public the vision through my own face appearing on a youtube video or two but I have a serious headache on the right hand side of my head. It limits my speech and I feel self conscious about it. I pray that God would relieve me of this pain through being able to express myself here and through art.
I wish that all the visions I have received could be manifested on earth like the building of orphanages from support given to this network , where I could film the building of these safe houses so people can trust that their support was stuwarded well . Or perhaps this is just another prophetic word going out. Hospitals too.
I don’t know how to get this ball rolling. I have too much personal anguish that limits me. I risk everything to get this on the ground and I am sorry to admit that my fear is perhaps bigger than my faith. I have a level of faith , that keeps me flying around churches observing people where I keep this vision bottled up inside me. I don’t know if I’ll ever be given the opportunity to let it out , so that people can see the beauty of it.
And I keep attracting women who’s only intent is to use me for their own gain , not to support the vision God has given me. Makes me sick to even think about it. I am so naive . I believe that they’re good people but when I look again they’re just stumbling blocks in my life.
I hope I can at least experience some of the manifestation of this dream in this life time. But to do that I’ll need a whole new way to receive and manage funding for this project. It’s complicated and I am in much danger.
Can these dry bones live ? Perhaps in Christ only. Any other way it won’t work. I always wonder about the how to make something work. I just wish I could get it all to work.
I remember a while ago , I said ” Hopelessness vs hope ” Bring on the challenge. And so it happened.
My dad died after overcoming blindness. And now my mother wants to commit suicide every other day. It’s a mission just to keep her alive. I can’t believe this is my mother. I wonder what God is trying to teach me here and don’t tell me that I challenged the devil and I shouldn’t . We’ve already overcome the world in Christ Jesus. There is nothing to do in the face of evil except to remain in the secret place of His victory. The devil is defeated. He doesn’t have a right in my life. And no.. don’t come and tell me about legal rights etc etc. People try to complicate life too much.
I managed to work through some issues I’ve had with two of my PC’s . Installing a liquid cooler in the one and upgrading it’s case and installing a graphics card in the other and a CPU fan. But guess what ? I am still up and running. Praise God for his continued faithfulness.
At some point the prophetic words that were spoken over my life will manifest and I’ll savor every moment of it. While my ex boss and people who’ve hurt me stand in awe because they totally misjudged me. I was never malicious , I was just principled and you didn’t get me. It’s sad to be on the receiving end of people’s bad natures but the wheel does turn. And then I am gonna show mercy because Jesus showed me mercy . I will win you into the Christ through Christ. I have a living Hope. He is ever with me. Amen.
Recently I have been watching historical movies of Alexander the great , napoleon and the shroud of Turin. We are truly blessed to have free access to such good quality documentaries. The shroud of Turin really blessed me and re-inforced my faith in Jesus Christ. Hope restored.
We sometimes think we know it all but really we don’t. We can make a choice to live this life or move on to the next one. No body is forced to stay here. If you know of someone who is alive now that you should be loving , reach out to them regardless of how you feel . The opportunity may pass and then it’s too late. Because let’s face it , when someone dies you don’t know they’re listening. Tell them now when it counts.
If you can’t chose to live at least don’t chose to die. Just focus on Jesus , He trusted God. Don’t give up. Don’t think life is all negative and not worth living. Be a human being , Just Be .
We all have people in our lives that forget about us. People drift in and out of our lives. If someone hurt you , forget about them . Most of the hurts we’ve experienced have been because we’re too sensitive. Our attitude was wrong. We must first seek to understand and then to be understood. Don’t think that people will understand you all the time. Just try and understand them.
I wish I could reach down into everyone’s heart and apply some healing balm. So much nastiness in this world. So much selfishness. People are so worried about the future that they’ve forgotten about the present. Live here, live now. Don’t think it’s going to be better only if this happens or that happens. You’ll miss it.
I am so weary and tired but I know somewhere in the future I look much better than I look right now. Blessed are the poor in Spirit. For theirs is the Kingdom of Heaven. We don’t have to have the best attitude out there. We only need to be ourselves , God loves us just as we are. Please accept His invitation and Trust Him. And don’t let anyone misrepresent Him to you. Don’t think that people who’ve been going to church for 1011 years know any better than you do. Sometimes they know nothing.
Open your heart today to His forgiveness and Love. Why should I be forgiven you say ? Because you’ve been focused on how little God loves you. Stop today . This day , make a fresh start. Believe. You’ve been challenged with the life you’ve been given. Live it, embrace it , and present to us the best version you can possibly be. We need you.
There are things that only you can do , that no one else can . We have been tasked with the little things and the great things. But don’t underestimate the power of the little things. A little thing can change someone’s life forever. Just a simple smile can change a person’s life . I know you’ve heard this before. I was once in the dumps for months until a man at a movie theater smiled at me when he saw me. That lifted me and sustained me.
Look at the Sun , and know that you’re casting a good shadow. Don’t work on your shadow and forget the sun.
I woke up one morning and felt like I had a flue and was, as you can imagine, feeling weak and struggling to focus. I went to work and I was asked to help someone carry a table; and as I did, I felt this pain in my lower back. I don’t know why I felt pain but it was there and it was bothering me so much that I asked if I could go home earlier, but they didn’t allow it for different reasons. I was told to take a chaire to sit on and do my work. At first it seemed unfair to me that I had to continue working, so I prayed; but something happened after I asked God to take the pain away. I experienced His joy while at work but still having the pain. With His joy I was helping customers and was able to think straight and assisted how ever I could; it was as if the pain wasn’t there anymore. That was when I realized the fact that God is all that you need, when God is all that you have. Hallelujah!