Being around negativity

Have you ever had someone around you that’s so negative that there wouldn’t be anyone in the world who would willingly want to live with them ?

I have such a person in my life. Around every turn they want to give up. They start at the crack of dawn and don’t stop till it’s evening. I have really had my hands full with this non sense . I went forward for prayer yesterday just to be able to say that I’ve at least tried this as well . I can’t anymore. This is just the place where God wants me. He wants me to be in a place where I realize that I can’t anymore without His help. 

I rely on him every day for that extra inspiration or little something that would make it possible for this person to be helped along in life. And it’s true. Without God I can do nothing. I can’t inspire anyone even myself. I am extending my sympathies to those who have experienced something similar. If there is anyone out there who has experienced something similar please accept my prayer for you.

And my prayer for you is this :

Lord Grant those who read this the peace to endure what they need to ,

The ability to encourage where they can ,

The wisdom to know how to handle those in their lives who are like this ,

And your special anointing to bring healing in body mind and spirit.


Prophetic action or literal project ?

I had a massive dream when I started blogging good news. Now I see that perhaps it was just a prophecy of what is to come. I see movies being made of the entire bible so that people won’t have to read it anymore. I thought that the money to create these movies would come from you the people supporting this network. But I see now that it is already in the making and Mel Gibson has the inside track on this.

So perhaps , all this is just a prophetic action of something that is already happening in the Spirit. None the less , it has been a challenge to get this multisite up running. I’d like to have made public the vision through my own face appearing on a youtube video or two but I have a serious headache on the right hand side of my head. It limits my speech and I feel self conscious about it. I pray that God would relieve me of this pain through being able to express myself here and through art.

I wish that all the visions I have received could be manifested on earth like the building of orphanages from support given to this network , where I could film the building of these safe houses so people can trust that their support was stuwarded well . Or perhaps this is just another prophetic word going out. Hospitals too.

I don’t know how to get this ball rolling. I have too much personal anguish that limits me. I risk everything to get this on the ground and I am sorry to admit that my fear is perhaps bigger than my faith. I have a level of faith , that keeps me flying around churches observing people where I keep this vision bottled up inside me. I don’t know if I’ll ever be given the opportunity to let it out , so that people can see the beauty of it.

And I keep attracting women who’s only intent is to use me for their own gain , not to support the vision God has given me. Makes me sick to even think about it. I am so naive . I believe that they’re good people but when I look again they’re just stumbling blocks in my life.

I hope I can at least experience some of the manifestation of this dream in this life time. But to do that I’ll need a whole new way to receive and manage funding for this project. It’s complicated and I am in much danger.

Can these dry bones live ? Perhaps in Christ only. Any other way it won’t work. I always wonder about the how to make something work. I just wish I could get it all to work.

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Hopelessness vs Hope

I remember a while ago , I said ” Hopelessness vs hope ” Bring on the challenge. And so it happened.

My dad died after overcoming blindness. And now my mother wants to commit suicide every other day. It’s a mission just to keep her alive. I can’t believe this is my mother. I wonder what God is trying to teach me here and don’t tell me that I challenged the devil and I shouldn’t . We’ve already overcome the world in Christ Jesus. There is nothing to do in the face of evil except to remain in the secret place of His victory. The devil is defeated. He doesn’t have a right in my life. And no.. don’t come and tell me about legal rights etc etc. People try to complicate life too much. 

I managed to work through some issues I’ve had with two of my PC’s . Installing a liquid cooler in the one and upgrading it’s case and installing a graphics card in the other and a CPU fan. But guess what ? I am still up and running. Praise God for his continued faithfulness.

At some point the prophetic words that were spoken over my life will manifest and I’ll savor every moment of it. While my ex boss and people who’ve hurt me stand in awe because they totally misjudged me. I was never malicious , I was just principled and you didn’t get me. It’s sad to be on the receiving end of people’s bad natures but the wheel does turn. And then I am gonna show mercy because Jesus showed me mercy . I will win you into the Christ through Christ. I have a living Hope. He is ever with me. Amen.

Recently I have been watching historical movies of Alexander the great , napoleon and the shroud of Turin. We are truly blessed to have free access to such good quality documentaries. The shroud of Turin really blessed me and re-inforced my faith in Jesus Christ. Hope restored.

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